Losing Someone Close To You

Losing someone so close to you is like losing a part of yourself. You don’t know what you want to do anymore and you have no idea what you thinking. You almost feel lost and like something in your life is missing because that person that you cared for so much is gone. Everyone loses someone in their life whether it’s one person so multiple people. But everyone loses someone they never thought would leave them. It’s almost like a dream of some kind where you want to  wake up and see that person the next day or in a few hours but it’s not a dream. You want to believe that they are still here but your in denial. You go through stages of grief. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and lastly Acceptance. And some of these stages could last longer or shorter than others but everyone goes through them. That person you had lost could have been so important to you and you miss them terribly. Or that person that’s now gone could have been someone you talked to once in a while, maybe someone you went to school with.  or maybe you didn’t say one word to each other and you just went different ways. It could be anything when it comes to someone passing. But the feeling is different what it’s just someone you kinda talked to and when its someone you spent time with and someone you had laughs, cries, screams with. The feeling is different because you feel more connected to them than you normally do when it’s just someone you rarely talked to. That feeling of losing someone so close to you is painful, everyone would think so. It’s something that takes time to heal because of. And having depression and when someone passes, I don’t know what to do. So how do we process losing someone so close to us. It’s different for everyone but I know the only thing I wanna do is cry and lock myself in my room and never come out. If it takes me what feels like a lifetime to get over when something tragic happens. It’s hard to go through something terrible and still act like you’re okay. Something that people don’t want to do not they'll do something they regret. People can get into drugs or alcohol to “relieve” the pain they feel when someone does pass away but it doesn’t relieve the pain, It makes the pain worse.It's not the easiest thing to deal with but you just have to push through it and keep going no matter how hard it gets. I know it may be hard at first but you have people around you how want to help you and be there. Talk to them. Tell them what's going on and what your feeling. Things will get better and I know it may seem like it right now but it will. Stay strong even if you think you can't because you can. There are so many people that believe in you and that are there to help you.